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Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007
8:52 pm	OK, anybody who wants to go to the bar has to post when theyre free and we can plan when to go!! :D it would be sooo much fun!! Current Mood: chipper (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 1st, 2007
5:34 pm	HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! ahh 2007....yup...craziness....i hope this year turns out better than last...im going to try to be more positive...but its hard considering the first week of the new year and i dont have any shifts nope NONE at all...i guess they really do hate me there.o well what can you do..but yes we should all go to the bar sometime eventually cuz that would be fun..oh and go see strippers at the marion too hey heather..hey JJ! lol fun times fun times...ya...i dont no what else to say....<shifts eyes quickly> ...ttyl! Current Mood: blank (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 25th, 2006
11:59 am	MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! Current Mood: cheerful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 11th, 2006
3:14 pm	Q: Can anybody please tell me what all of the different political offices are?... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 6th, 2006
11:42 pm	Life sux and gets worse each minute lived... UGH i hate my life im soo pissed off!! first off daves moving out...but whatever... and at moxies i only work like 1- 2 hours each shift which is what everybody works so it is the norm, so i thought then fine i cant afford to live here and pay rent so im going to move home, and when i told my mom she got all mad and told me i wasnt allowed! nobody wants me to live with them so i have to stay at meghans even tho she doesnt want me there and that means since dave is leaving rent is going up and i have to pay 300 a month, which isnt bad but thats not including utilities and food, besides theres also christmas presents i need to buy, and i have no money,  so now i have to get a second job just to survive and moxies is bad enough since apparently everyone there is like best friends with eachother and nobody talks to me even tho i try to start convos with people it seems like noone wants to carry them on with me and they all stand in a large group at the hostess desk talking and laughing while i stand off to the side looking all awkward and because of that the manager will prolly fire me since im not sociable with everyone even tho i do try to be...ugh...why is it so hard for me to make friends with people its like the most impossible thing, its as if everyone got together and decided to exclude noelle from everything i always feel alienated everywhere i go, it just seems like i have no friends anymore at all, even like the friends i do have dont seem like friends anymore just as people i once new since nobody ever calls me anymore, noone ever wants to call me to hang out and honestly im tired of only seeing my friends only if i call, you no unless its some big group get together. so thats why i havent been calling anyone if anyones even noticed but im sorry i dont like trying to convince my friends to hang out with me. im not trying to be rude to anyone at all im sorry thats just how i feel, because it is true if i dont call im not invited but i guess i should expect that since everyone has a best friend except for me, i mean i do obviously understand why jenna and sarah dont call or anything they have school and work, but yea i dont know i guess im just a little pissed off right now since im not even sure i can say that i have any close friends. But thats not anybodys fault but mine you guys all have your close buddies...eachother. i dont no maybe im taking the fact that i havnt seen anybody in over a month the wrong way, i was just trying to see if anyone cared enough to call and see if i wanted to hang out with them, apparently not. but i guess this is just the way life goes were not in high school anymore i guess it just wasnt supposed to work out that we would stay friends past high school...it was the inevitable unfortunately, now im basically left friendless, and ive felt so lonely for the longest time like i have nobody in this world i can confide in, ive tried with dave but he literally blows me off, mochs me and ignores me, so i have noone, i feel so abandoned my own mom doesnt want me to come back, i just wish i had somebody who wanted to be my friend. Current Mood: depressed (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 1st, 2006
8:01 pm	OMG! you guys would not beleive what happened last tuesday my house was broken into and robbed, they stole daves ps2 and all of our movies about 50 and ... my cell phone!!! so i went to rogers and told them and they said that theyre still going to be charging me every month even if my phone was stolen i already owe over 600 fucking dollars!!!! im so pissed off, and o ya it was a couple of girls that broke in and they stole meghans really expensive makeup brushes and the cops had to come over and they fingerprinted the house and what not, of course it wasnt as dramatic of fingerprinting as they make you believe on csi, it really only took a few minutes..but yes my life sux.. Current Mood: distressed (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 23rd, 2006
8:04 pm	OMG!! OMG!! i got a job as hostess at moxies on regent im so pumped i start tuesday!! oh and by the way i walked out on telesolutions the second day of work i didnt like it so at lunch i just never came back and they phoned me for a week. lol, but yes i had an interview today with moxies and there were like 3 other girls applying for hostess too ( it was a group interview at first) and they only had one opening for a hostess and so half an hour after i got back from my interview they called me im so stoked!! i just gotta get a bunch of fancy black clothes now...boy wont THAT be fun... Current Mood: ecstatic (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 17th, 2006
8:01 pm	hey guys hows it going i havent heard from anyone for forever but whatever. Anyways i heard that you, yes you ANDREW have been spreading lies and slander. HUH? thats so not cool, apparently you told my brother that dave cheated on me for whatever reason i am not sure but everyone in my family was quite upset with this rumor and i can assure you that this is complete bullshit because if he were to do anything remotely as harsh as what you claimed he had i would not be giving him the time of day.but if you knew something i didnt i would have thought you would have come to me with the information, which is fine since i know that was not the reason we had broken up before.so yes i would appreciate it if you were to not gossip about me, although i do understand the fact you may not like him for what he did to me now thats just you being a great friend and i had hated him for a while as well, but at the same time it embarrasses me for people to be thinking that i am with someone who would do that to me. so yes im not sure where you came up with that but if im wrong and josh is just a liar than im sorry and ill ttyl. :) Current Mood: bored (12 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 2nd, 2006
11:46 am	Dream Ok, Ok, i had the weirdest dream ever - not even kidding - ok, so, probably only sarah jenna and andrew will know who im talking about but whatever, so heres what happened...'I was at home when the phone rang and it was kayla which is really weird since i haven't talked to her in like years, and we were talking and then she said she was coming over for one day to visit, and then she came over and her three older brothers were there, jesse dylan and well i cant remember the eldest ones name, but he was there too, oh ya it was scott, ok and her dad was there too, and i remember she looked exactly the same as when i had seen her last in grade 8. and we were catching up when her dad burst in and told us that they were gonna stay for 2 weeks and we got really excited, and just like that we were best friends again and everything was great and dave was there tho he seemed really annoyed throughout my whole dream. and then two weeks past, we were living in my attic for some reason, my family and hers, and then we decided to go to the zoo, but hat was like a 5 hour drive so i remember at one point we stopped off at a gas station and got drinks, and then when we got there i think it was closed and then we all fell into this alternate universe and suddenly the whole dream was about kaylas three brothers and her mother, who hadent made an appearance in my dream until this point, and she was a huge grizzly bear. And i remember each of the brothers had gotten a recording contract because they were rappers and so they had to go tell there mom, but they had to turn into bears first and so jesse approached her and she killed him with one claw to the face, next was dylan same thing happened to him, then scott went and they fought and kaylas dad came and rescued him and then kaylas mom turned back into  a person and they all did except jesse and dylan cuz they were dead, anyways then her mom apologized and said she couldnt help it then we all went home and kayla only had one brother left and then her dad decided that they were gonna stay there for good and we were so happy!!...and then i woke up and for some reason am feeling a bit depressed cuz its been about six years since ive seen her which seems almost unbeleivable i feel so horrible for not trying to keep in touch i dont even know if she still lives in calgary, but i also dont even know why i ha d a dream about her since she hadnt even entered my thoughts for forever, so if somebdy has some insight as to what the dream might mean and why all of a sudden she popped into to my mind feel free to let me in on it! oh and who wants to go to the mall today please call me or ill call you bye! Current Mood: sad (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006
3:13 pm	Hey you guys, tis me, noelle, finally i can be on livejournal, but only because im at the library and they let me use the internet. i know i told you guys id have the internet at the house and we did but when i got there our roomates alwyas kept it in their bedroom and were always on it, now its broken, something to do with the harddrive, but melony my roomate told me that her and matt my other roomate (they're engaged) might buy a desktop, so me and dave could buy there laptop of them for like 200 dollars thatd be awesome. But i miss you guys sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much like you wouldn't believe!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait to see you all again!! i hope youre all having fun over there i miss winnipeg so much its sooo huge and there are a million things to do there unlike here :P but owell. yes so far i had a job at tims for a day but quit cuz theyre crazy and then i worked at safeway for like three weeks then quit cuz theyre boring now i just gotta find another job, something fun that i could do during the day, dont no what yet tho but theres a million and one places all hiring here i just have to make my pick. God, its so boring out here i mean sometimes me and mel hang out, but like i dunno were not like close friends like you guys are to me, and dave works everyday most days he doesnt get home till like 930pm and then he eats and shwers and goes to sleep and is up and gone by 6 am the next morning so i basically never seee him. but yay we finally get to move into the basement and i get to decorate i cant ait but anyways ill stop boring you all with my boring life and let you get back to all your adventures and what not i hope to here from you all soon dont be shy of calling the only person who calls me is sarah, thank you sarah i luv u! lol lata! Current Mood: lonely (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
7:28 pm	I just love all you guys so much!!! Current Mood: chipper (2 Comments |Comment on this)
7:23 pm	music is an expression of self I’ll be coming home Just to be alone Cause I know you’re not there And I know that you don’t care I can hardly wait to leave this place No matter how hard I try You’re never satisfied This is not a home I think I’m better off alone You always disappear Even when you’re here This is not my home I think I’m better off alone Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a home By the time you come home I’m already stoned You turn off the TV And you scream at me I can hardly wait Till you get off my case No matter how hard I try You’re never satisfied This is not a home I think I’m better off alone You always disappear Even when you’re here This is not my home I think I’m better off alone Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a home I’m better off alone No matter how hard I try You’re never satisfied This is not a home I think I’m better off alone You always disappear Even when you’re here This is not my home I think I’m better off alone Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a home Current Mood: amused Current Music: since you've been gone - Kelly Clarkson (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 8th, 2005
3:09 pm	WOW..it's been a while since ive updated...so.....O_O.......yeah...................................................well i really have nothing to say....im bored tho...O_o......oh yes and a happy birthday to you lis!!!!!!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 21st, 2005
2:30 pm	ZZZZZZZZZZZZ........ HOLY CRAP! i can't beleive i woke up at 2:00 in the friggin afternoon!!....this is just messed up, but the more messed up thing is i wouldn't have gotten out of bed if it werent 2:00...or at least if i haden't looked at the clock...in which case i wouldn't of even looked at the clock if the damned answering machine didnt wake me up...oi... Current Mood: tired Current Music: christina & Nelly- tilt your head back (Comment on this)
Friday, November 18th, 2005
11:02 am	... ughh, today is already HORRIBLE, i have to go to work for 4 hours, yesterday i worked for 8 hours, but thankfully i get paid today. i was so mad i know how everyone thinks ' oh your dad is so nice' and shit but he's not the only time he ever treats me nicely is when hes drunk or stoned or drugged up, aand yes he is a stoner now cuz thats what we found out he's been doing in his garage, so basically hes always too out of it to recognize its me when hes talking to me, becuase whenever hes sober he hates me, he does, he just told me this morning after telling me to shut the hell up, fuck off, and telling me i was a fucking two year old, and guess why, guess what the trouble i caused this time was,i took the milk that was beside him so i could pour it in my cereal and he spazzed out, it doesn't take much to know that he hates me and will find any excuse to show it. But i dont know why, its only me, he never treats meghan and josh like this EVER, josh will yell at him and peter will ignore him and take him out for breakfast, and of course hes always trying to help meghan out with her house and always chatting nicely with her, but he completely ignores my existance until i start breathing too loudly then he can spaz out and my mom will then yell at me for provoking him, you know, my mom only started being nice to me when i started going out with dave, i mean first she was her regular noelles evil and bitchy and should go on the pill, now she nice to me then ever before, and its only because im going out with dave. I guess beofre she hated that i was such a loser who couldn't get a guy and sat at home all day because i had no life and she was always telling me to go out and party or something ridiculous. im just so pissed off right now. I hate dave too he gets on my nerves and i just wanna stab him god i hate him so bad, and also whats pissing me off is that whenever heather invites people over im NEVER invited EVER, its nice to no i have friends who actually wanna hang out with me without me having to plan stuff...but im not mad at you guys at all, theres probably some reason why im never invited, i just feel left out Current Mood: depressed (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
11:34 pm	tired, bored, all of the above... Well...today...lets think...oh yes i was awoken from a great dream (that of which i cannot remember) to DAVE! standing at the side of my bed sneaking up on me at 3:30 in the friggin morning!!! he apparently woke up at 1am from a nightmare and thought i would be sleeping beside him so he rolled over i wasnt there, he went upstairs to find me...yadadada anyways yea so then he woke me up and complained and bitched about why i lied and slept upstairs!!! ugghhhh!! anyways...YAY HOW WAS THE GWEN CONCERT!! i know you've all been looking forward to it forever!! i cant wait to hear about it!!!you guys are lucky, i mean, not that i like gwen, or hate her or anything, BUT YOU GET TO SEE ONE OF THE BIGGEST CELEBRITIES IN HOLLYWOOD RIGHT NOW LIVE!!! LUCKY YOUS!!, yea im really tired now and have to work from 10-6 tommorow!!! 8 hours how fun, so i have to be awake at 8 am tommrow, but the good thing is IM GETTING MY HAIR DONE THIS WEEKEND! but i don't know what to get so if everyone could put in there oppinion i would LOVE it!! thankyous!!!oh and apparently dave had a dream about you sarah!!LMAO, he said he was wearing a helmet and laughing evily as he was slapping your cheeks or someting...??...lmao, i thought it was funny...odd, but funny, and thats all i really have to say...my life is boring i know...ughh..bye, nite! Current Mood: tired (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
12:20 am	HOLY CRAP, i haven't posted since the ninth...thats craziness!!...anyways...well, saturday i got totally wasted, which was the biggest mistake of my entire life, i had 4 smirnoff's, a rye and coke and 4 shots, craziness,god why do i keep saying that?, anyways, so me and dave went with tara and jeremy and kyle to taras friends house before and dave got all distraught becuz apparently jeremy was checking me out while i was putting on my shoes...which is ridiculous!!, and then he was getting all upset and jealose cuz he thought i was checking out the bar tender and that the bar tender was checking me out he got SO MAD he was all you cant hide it i saw you like 5 times noelle and he got all in a tizzy, whatever!!! then he bought my a fake glowing rose which costed him 7 dollars, so i kept it cuz that was kind of a waste of money, and then the most horrible thing in the entire world happened when we got back, well you see it was kind of my fault but his as well because i was DONE and gone, and i was all over him...because i was DRUNK, FUCK and then something happened, which i dont wanna say but...it only happened half way so im still a...you know...i dont wanna say it, but i remember lying there and i was screaming i the back of my head STOP THIS NOELLE!!!! but i couldn't its like it was somebody else and he was doing it and then i FINALLY got it out and told him to stop and i started crying and then it stopped and apparently he felt really bad and apologized saying that he should have been stronger but he was too weak and i was too drunk which im not using as an excuse but i was out of it, then he got all scared that i was going to sober up and call him an ass saying that he took advantage of me since he was sober...which he kind of did, but he said he couldn't help it cuz he was weak....and we went upstairs and started watching cursed but i fell asleep and so did he and we woke up at 6am and i went and crawled in my own bed, and strangly enough i didnt get the slightest hangover in the morning which was weird considering how much i had to drink. but i remember i just wanted to call somebody and tell them what happened and i just wanted to cry and i feel so ashamed and i hate myself, but thankfully im still a virgin but we did do it partially, i dont want to explain it becuz its disgusting and i absolutely hate myself and i just wish i hadnt gotton drunk and that i could take everything back and that i was dead i cant beleive what i did and i just want someone i can talk to and just cry but i wont because it was my fault and i shouldnt be so damn emotional but i just dont know what to do or what to say becuz this disgusting feeling just wont go away...but...anyways...back to things that i didnt do that were stupid, well, friday we went to meghans and watched unleashed WHICH WAS A FRIGGIN AWESOME movie!!! and tyler was there and he told dave that my nickname was cockgirl, apparenlty for no particular reason and that its nothing personal, but thats my nickname and they were all laughing and then meghan had some REALLY NERDY guy over that wears a duster and looks like a dorky eathan hawk and he said something to comment on them calling my a cockgirl like, be carefull or shell go deep thrat fishing or something then everyone got quiet an tyler said to dave do u know him are you gonna take that from him but neither me or dave new what he was talking about but since it souded like an insult towards me i punched him realy hard a few times and he got red and shiut up, that lil puke, anyways, and then on sunday i went to my omas bday party shes now 70! and then came home we ordered chinsese and watched charlie and the chocolate factory, WHICH WAS AWESOMENESS!!, and then today i was fine until like 2 and then i got all sick and dave came to get me to take the movie back and i was all throwing up and so i went home and he went to take his mom somewhere and i went to sleep till like 7:30 which was like three hours and when i woke up my kitten was lying in the nook of my arm which was adorable and comforting and i remebered reading somewhere that if a cat senses youre sick they can take away your sickness and i think thatst what happened cuz i felt so much better when i woke up, cuz before i felt like i was dying and then my parents were screaming and swearing at eachother so i got up and my dad broke the other window in the door and we left and went to my auntys where i ate candy and watched inuyasha and then we took meghan to work and now im FINALLY on the computer since josh has LITERALLY been hording the damned comp since wednesday when i got off he hasnt been off once NOT ONCE!!!but im just glad im not sick anymore, and tommorow im going to get a ceasar cuz theyre aweosome Current Mood: depressed Current Music: christina aguilera - mulan rouge (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
2:48 pm	Keep on singing my song Oohhh, Yeah, Oooh Huh I woke up this morning with a smile on my face & Nobody's gonna bring me down today Been feeling like nothings been going my way lately So I decided right here and now that my outlooks gotta change That's why I'm gonna Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried For everytime somebody hurt my pride Feeling like they won't let me live life & Take the time to look at what is mine I see every lesson completely I thank God for what I got from above I believe they can take anything from me But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace They can say all they wanna say about me But I'm gonna carry on Keep on singing my song I never wanna dwell on my pain again There's no use in reliving how I hurt back then Remembering all of the hell I felt when I was running out of faith Every step I vowed to take was towards a better day Cos I'm about to Say goodbye to every single lie & All the fears I've held too long inside Everytime I felt I could try All the negativity I had inside For too long I've been struggling. I couldn't go on But now I've found I'm feeling strong and moving on I believe they can take anything from me But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace They can say all they wanna say about me But I'm gonna carry on I'm gonna keep on singing my song Whoa, & everytime I tried to be what they wanted from me It never came naturally So I ended up in misery, wasn't able to see All the good around me They wasted so much energy on what they thought of me Simply just remembering to breathe I'm human, I ain't able to please Everyone at the same time, so now I find My peace of mind living one day at a time I'm human and I answer to one god It comes down to one love Until I get to heave above I've made the decision Never to give up Til the I day I die no matter what I'm gonna carry on & keep on singing my song..... (They can't take anything from me) I believe that they can do what they wanna. Say what they wanna say (They can say what they wanna) But I'm gonna keep on (Keep on ) I believe it That they can take from me But they can't take my inner peace Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, Say what you wanan say, but I'm gonna sing my song Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Christina Aguilera- keep on singing my song (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
11:12 am	YAY!! My computer is back from the dead it's a halloween miracle...even tho it's past halloween...anyways, nothing interesting has happened in my life...im not looking forward to going to work today and this is only my second week, its not that it's hard or that people are mean...its just that its soooo dammmnnn booorrriiinnnggg...uggghhhhh!!!, well its only a 3 hour shift, but then i have a 5 hour shift tommorow, and i know for a fact that if i already had money in my bank account from working it wouldn't be so bad, not at all, but it just feels like i'm working for free since i have to wait 3 more weeks till my first real pay check, well thats excluding the paycheck i'll get this saturday for the ONE day i worked, so it'll be like $20...i think i'll waste it on alcohol or something...iunno, anyways THANKYOU SARAH SO MUCH!! i tried so many times to get a pic for my ....pic...thing...but the file was always apparently too big, that pissed me off rightly, yea but it was fun playing pool yesterday, i liked that, we should do that more often, ohh, and i wanted to say that i was so embarrassed when i was driving you guys home and dave was in the passanger seat and he took out a bag and said he wanted to show me something, and they were flavoured condoms....i wanted to die...no, no...i wanted HIM to die...GOD!!!!!!! like WTF, he did that on purpose!!!WE DON'T DO THAT!! HE'S JUST AN ASS!!!! there i had to tell you guys, cuz i didn't want you to get the wrong impression....oh how i wanted to stab him.....anyways, enough with my violence, but thats cool that you like him Lisa, yea....lol, hes just not a shy guy, and sometimes i dunno, anywho...i have nothiong else to say at the moment...so farewell... Current Mood: crazy (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
12:24 pm	Nonsense... Ugghhh, i'm so bored, but i worked for three hours yesterday, and tommorow i will work 8 hours...but yes, it's not that bad, kinda boring, but meh, i totaled up the amount of hours i work for the next i think 7? shifts, and ill of made $304! and then i'm FINALLY gonna get my hair did, and then i'm dragging ya'll to the bar and buy us all drinks, yep, i'm gonna blow my money, but hey i deserve it after sitting around all summer doing jack shit...anywho...it was so cute i walked into my mome room this morning...well...about 10 minutes ago anyways, and my cat was sprawled on the dresser basking in the sunlight, and her head was drapped over the side just hanging ther...and she smelt like farts....lol....she must have been very relaxed....AND..guess what, that stupid practive stuff....IS WORKING yay, i finally have clear skin!!, for almost a hundred dollars, but it was worth every cent..teehee, anywho...nothing new in noelle land...but i wanna hang out with somebody, somebody call me, or i'll harrass your phone lines..mwahaha...YOU HAVE TWO DAYS! lol..you know, until i start peskering you, oh but i had the most bestest dream! i dreamt i was sleeping upstairs in my bedroom, well, i was lying there trying to fall asleep when all of a sudden theres this guy at my window trying to break in, so i go get my mom, and were standing at the window looking at him and were taping on the window but for the longest time he doesnt see us there...weirdness, and then, he finally DOES notice us AFTER he gets the window open, and he jumps back and runs off, so i jump out the window and take off after him and then were in the middle of my street, well im in front of my house and hes way ahead of me running, and i can see from the back of him and he looks like dave, which was weird cuz i saw his face at my window and it wasnt him, anyways, so then he takes off running and i'm chasing after him, and i catch up quickly because he was a really slow runner, and then i grab him and im like DAVE! but it wasn't him so im like who are you..and hes all...uhhhh, but i cant remember if he told me his name, so anyways, im like well, why were you at my window, and hes all because we need you , and i'm like what...why? and he's all, you're the only person who can save the world, you need to come with me, and then he kissed me and i backed off and was all oh i have a b/f, but in my mind i was all ugghh, stupid b/f, and then i went with him, and we were picked up by a helicopter, and i new that this was what i had to do, this was what i was made for, i had to save the world, it gave me a rush, and i know in real life its always been something i've wanted to do, so by the time im 21 if im not a famous singer, i will persue becoming a secret agent for csis (canadian cia if you didnt know), yes that is my pla, but anyways, i'm going to go take a shower....so until next time....yeah.... Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)